someone please call 911

- yawns

What's going on people? Doing good? Good. I feel as though I should blog today - about nothing in particular. I'm on the Desktop because the laptop is with the lady getting fixed hopefully. She told me that I should get rid of Ares, & that it's probably had a lot to do with why my computer is all jacked up. Sad, right? I can't help it. I need my music. I guess I'll have to go back to buying CDs again. Forgive me Hip-Hop, R&B, Pop, & Rock world. Have I ever expressed how irritating bangs are? Omg, they poke my in the eyes like all day everyday! UGh! I might cut them shorter because I can't take it. The price we pay for beauty, man.

Our class is having another "bonding" activity on Saturday. I don't think I'm going to go, though. I probably should, but I can see me not having a good time this time around. Have you ever had something you look at, & it just makes your stomach hurt? Kinda like a nervousness, or anxious feeling? Yea, I can see me having that the entire time. Not to mention awkwardness. I don't know. A lot had changed since the school year ended. Isn't that something? Summer begins, & relationships get worse - well at least for some people. But yea, I'll pass on making myself sick. I have jealous tendencies, lol.

So, as it turns out. I'm not getting my dslr for my birthday. I promise you I wanted to cry. Dad shot me down, I'm afraid. He sent me $300, like here, have fun. I'm like are you serious? I probably sound like an ungrateful brat, but I can't help but feel played. If I wanted money, I would have asked for it. I WANT MY DAMN CAMERA.. I'm trying to recover from that slowly. He claims he's not getting it because he's still trying to save up for a house, psh - riiight. Whatever though. I need to stop talking about it before I get mad again. Maybe I can talk him into doing the monthly thing at Bestbuy when he gets home in two weeks. Men sure do know how to hurt a woman's feelings.

Myles called me yesterday trying to get on, again. Lol, my moms always like, "Why are you so mean to him?". I'm like mean? ME? Naa. I'm just not interested. Is that so bad? He called me bitter, like "Some nigga must have broke your heart or something". I laughed. Dude, if only you knew. But he thinks thats the reason why I won't talk to him. Baah. It has nothing to do with that. I just don't want to be involved with somebody like him. He trys to tell me what he can do for me & how I could have anything I want - blah blah. Once again, I'm not that type of girl. You flashing money in my face is definitely not going to make me want to be with you. I have a father & grandfather for that type of thing. Poor thing, if only he'd learn.

Keila's trying to throw this Hotel party after her open house. At first I was all for it - until she showed me what hotel she was trying to go to. It's a 1 1/2 star hotel. = Somewhere waaaay on the eastside. The building looks old as hell & dirty, too. I might have to take a rain check on that one. She's so worried about the price that she doesn't want to stay in a nice hotel. "It's only $60 a night." Wtf? SO!? It's probably Herpes & AIDS swimming all up and down that pool & jacuzzi. And they put the jacuzzi's in the rooms too? Na, I'll pass. I enjoy being STD-free. Bring a blacklight to that boy and I bet you'll change your mind..

Bryan's having another pool party next week. I'm actually kind of excited about it. I haven't been swimming the entire summer, so hopefully that will be cool. I get to show off my hot bod. ^_^, lol. Let me stop. But yea - looking forward to that. I might call Markus today & see if he wants to do something. He said he wanted to hang out for my birthday so we'll see.

off to continue my daydreaming else-where.