I even keep his picture in my passport.

Another day of absolutely nothing. I pretty much chilled all day. White Boy called me about 5 times today talking about how his girl friend was tripping because my number was in his phone. Funny, right? I'm like really? She's mad? We don't even talk like that, definitely not enough for her to get mad. Females will be females I guess. I told him to tell her I only date blond haired white boys, lol. That broad was tripping.

Still waiting for my dad to give me that call. I'm going to cry if he turns me down. :( I've been dreaming every week about that damned camera. That's all I really want anyways, besides some more shoes. I'm starting to get back into sneakers again. I bought my first pair of dunks in a while saturday - later I found out that they were leo zodiac sign dunks. Ironic, right? Lol, I had no idea. LEOS ARE THE SHIT, NIGGA! Juelz & Ace know. - daps

I'm really craving some Coke right now. The drinkable kind, you line snorters! I killed a whole 2 liter bottle by myself last night. Something about it is.. addicting. I need to see if my uncle feels like going to the store real fast for me. This is why I need a car! People like me have cravings that need to be tended to immediately! Speaking of which, I almost crashed the jeep the other day, lol. If I wasn't so determined that I wasn't going to jack that boy up, I'd of had a air bag in my face sunday. I scared the shit out of my moms. We were on the freeway and I was about to miss my turn on a forked road, & she yells out "STOP!". I'm thinking, I can't stop on a freeway! Somebody's going to smash into the back of us- so I cut the fork really sharp going mad fast around the curve. Lol, tires screeching and all. But I kept control though! I turned the shit out of that corner. :) Fuck that, I'm the shit! ... I still need a lot of practice, though, lol.

I'm so ready for college, DUDE! This year is going to be fun, though. Amiri's mom cried when I came back home on our way to the airport. We were all jacked up. She gave me the offer of living with them down there for my senior year. I still haven't decided completely, but I'm probably going to go ahead & finish up at Renaissance. I've worked hard there for 3 years now - I might as well finish my last year. Amiri's coming home for Prom & Homecoming too, so I'll be seeing her in a few months. I'll probably try & get down there again before the school years out. Amiri only needs two clases to graduate, too! I was heated & hating! Lol! I love her, though.

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I truly believe the Devil roams this earth in different forms. They say he was had the gift of gab. He makes things sound & seem so right, when they're totally the opposite. Almost 17 & almost more wise then the oldest of my friends. Wow. I don't need people like that around me, like I really don't. That give you insight on people's personalities. Are you really that easily influenced. I understand that there are somethings in life that no one knows, I understand that man has many unanswerable questions, I get all of that. Like Jay said, Curiosity is the death of mankind. People think themselves out of faith. If you believe something, you believe it. Period, point blank. There is nothing anyone can tell you that will make you think otherwise. That's why I feel like faith is so special. It's not for the weak. You think because someone comes up to me & is like, "Hey, God isn't real, because you have no proof he exists." Hell no. Scientist didn't know that protons & neutrons existed - but oh damn, they do, don't they? Nigga, have you not seen the Boondocks? "The Absence of evidence is not the evidence of absence". And even despite that, Faith isn't about proof. You believe what you believe because you believe it with every fiber of you heart. That's it. The brain has nothing to do with it. Faith isn't about making since, & I hope someone out there realizes that. No, I don't go to church Sunday, and no, I don't read my bible as often as I should. But I know one thing, I do believe in God.


Got me in here mixing curse words with my savior, ugh. Enough venting.

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Must I remind you again my birthday's in 2 days?