Monday, already?

- stretches & yawns

Wow, did I really just fall alseep on the phone last night? Lol, BOTH of us were knocked out! I hope I wasn't saying any weird shit either.. that would be very embarrassing, lol. Anyways, yesterday was an okay day - despite the fact that my mom pissed me off because of her misleading ass ways. It's like she teases me with what I want, and then pulls some old, "I don't have to let you do anything, I never promised you .." type shit. BITCH, DON'T WAVE THE SHIT IN MY FACE LIKE YOUR GOING TO LET ME DO SOMETHING, AND THEN SWITCH UP! -sigh. She makes me sick sometimes, I promise. So as of right now, we're on non - speaking terms.. She started it..

Apparently, I have a "bew". Well, at least he has a "bew". But whatever, things aren't always what they seem, and I'm not rushing anything of course. But I do like him, and he obviously likes me too. And you know what I really like about him? Sex is never the topic of our discussion. Never. I mean, he may sneak in a few cakey jokes here and there, but never sex. I like that, lol. I've always said, I HATE IT when I first meet a guy, and he asks me .. "So, uhh, you a freak?". Guess what? You've just ruined your chances with me. Congratulations, asshole. His brother is supposedly getting out of jail tomorrow, and he invited me to the festivities. Lol, yes, I know, I know, brother in prison? Red Flag? But it was a sweet gesture, though. People get caught up, you know? Drug game of course, and been in for 5 years. I'm happy for him, low key. But yea, he's telling me how ALL his family is going to be there, and they're cooking and everything. I'm like whoa kid, that's a big step. I'm not just meeting his mother, BUT HIS WHOLE FAMILY. He like, "You shy?". Lol, nigga no! That's not the issue.. this is you're entire family we're talking about, hello? Who wouldn't be a little nervous. He's lucky I'm a people person. So, we'll see what happens with that. I might go, I might not.

Guess what? My birthday is in a Month. :) Yaaay Me! And as soon as I turn 17, I'm getting online, and putting in an application for Best Buy. I want to work there so bad. :( That's like, the PERFECT job for me. Oh, and then I'm going to go to the movies, and see an R rated movie.. BY MYSELF! Lol, Geeked up, right? I've alwaaaays been the baby of all my friends, old hoes. One more year, and I'll be club hoping. Haha.. ahhhh, what fun will that be.

I can say I'm a little disappointed in a few people as of today. Somethings people say just have you like, oh, forreal? You know that feeling? When you talk to somebody, and you're kind of like arguing, and they say something waaaaaaaaay off, and you're like Oh, real talk? That's how you feel? That's how I'm feeling right now. And then there's others too, the ones who play roles. You know, actors. Yes, pretenders. Two people in particular come to mind when I think about these things, and it's really kind of funny. "Should of cuffed." Do you know how long that text has been lingering in my brain? Do you know how PISSED off I immediately was? Don't you ever tell me what route I should have gone with you. So you finally interested somebody else, so? Don't go so far as to tell me any shit like that. Nigga, YOU should have been more aggressive in what you wanted, and maybe you could have cuffed me. Guess not, though, huh? Have fun with you're little interests. Hope she does you better.

And that other one, lol. That to me is just funny. Nothings really changed, despite how much you might think it has. One night doesn't make anything different, at least not for me. But you're so close to being on the fringe anyways, it's not going to matter for much longer. When I need something, I'll call. Really, though. You don't have to worry about not feeling like talking to me, I don't call to talk - I call when I need something. Matter of fact, I'll just text for now on, so that way, we don't get confused, kay? Kay.

Maybe turning 17 is more important than I initially thought?

Me and Keila were talking about my favorite and most confusing topic - our futures. What does my future really have in store for me? Will I make it through 6 years of college while staying focused? Or will I fall off the map - no, that's not even a possibility. No one is going to hold me back from my own success. After high school, I'm going to fending for myself. None of that staying at home, and living with moms. I'm out of here right after my summers done. Who knows? I might even spend my whole summer down south, and just go to school when it's that time. My future is looking so bright. I just have to put in my effort, and things will go EXTRA smooth. But, that's a blog for another day, I'm afraid.

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