Wednesday, April 30, 2008

who knew?

I told you I might come back later. Well, here I am. I'm back in the mood. It's 2:31. Why do I stay up late like this, huh? Truth is, I can't sleep. Psh, nothin new actually. I am sleepy though, I just can't sleep. It's probably because I'm thinking a lot again. Here my brain goes, running in overdrive.


Sometimes, I just want to like, float. In mid-air, you know? Like, the clouds seem like the perfect place to go. I would float in space, but it's cold. I need to be closer to the sun - for warmth. You feel me? Yea, you feel me.


I need.. hmm. Complete-ness. Is that a word? I feel, half here? Does that make sense? Saying I feel incomplete would sound exactly how I don't want it to sound. Ew, that's Gay. Scratch that whole thing. Ok, here it is. I.. need to to free. Wait, am I contradicting myself? Yea, I'm confusing. This is why I think I'm so wishy-washy. I know what I want, and it's everything. I'm greedy, so to speak. Unfortunately for me, I can't have it all. The truth sucks, doesn't it? This is why I don't live in the same world the rest of you do. I live in a dream, where I can seek my full potential, and visit my happy place, you know.. the place I talked about earlier. The sunkissed clouds. This is my home, up until I wake up.. mm.. I'm rambling. I should stop now.


Sunkissed clouds? Damn, sounds nice, doesn't it? Throw in a iPod, with ALL your favorite joints. Sounds even better. It's 3 a.m. now. I blanked out a few times up until now. Sorry about that. The iPods in.. I sort of zoned out..

You know what? I'm going to my happy place now, goodnight.

older posts.

2 comments:

NIKE THEORY said...

Eh, China!
If you can't sleep, call me.
I don't have a problem with talking to you.
I understand what you're saying, though.

We'll talk about it, I promise.
Well, that's if you want to talk.

Chmy said...

I'm sorry Jay. I'll call you next time, promise.