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Revamped Blog. Like it? No, ha.. man, too bad I don't care about what you think. The "layout" inpired from the best anime in the natural universe: Ghost in the Shell. The leading lady? Major Motoko Kusanagi. Ehh, call me a nerd for watching anime, I don't care! -shrugs. Real talk though, If you're an anime extremist like me, check out the original movie. Theres like, 3 of them now. If you get VeohTV, you can watch all of them for free. Piracy, no?

You know what I don't like, Clingyness. Ugh, I see it as I sign of immaturity. Guess what? I've been very immature lately. =\. It's actually really irritating. It's like, all I want to do is talk to this person, weird right? Especially for somebody like me, Mrs. Independent; not belonging to anybody blah blah. Guess what? I'm a sensitive, love sharing punk - and I hate it. I need to go back to being rough and tough when It comes to guys, lol.

I went to sleep all extra early last night - like 8 o'clock early. NIGGA. I can't remember the last time I went to sleep that early. I guess I was just really really tired. I need to plan on reinstalling my Yahoo, too. It hasn't been working for the past week. No, I'm not invisible, clowns. But the peace & quiet has been nice.. Hmm, maybe it can stay down for a little longer?

Oh! Guess what else? I recently got 3 new drawing pieces into my portfolio for next year. [ round of applause ] Bout time I got something in there that I actually like. I rarely like my own art. People will see it and be like, "You did this?" "Yea.." "Oh, it's really nice!" "Forreal?". Lol. I'm like Nigga get out, that's wack, lol. But I guess a lot of artist are like that, we're our own worst critic. I know I'm mine. I wish I drew more, I probably should buy another sketchbook.. ehh, whatever.

Man, my mom told me the scariest thing today.. I'm talking like, beyond comprehension scary. I'm talking like the weirdest thing I've ever heard of in my life. You believe in like, spirits and stuff? No? Well guess what, they're real. TRUST me. Angelic & Demonic. I won't go into details about the entire conversation, but yo. I was mad freaked out.

Notice the lack of curse words? Yea, I'm on a mission to stop cursing. It's stupid hard, but it's possible. I've been cursing for so long that it's hard to stop, lol. But it's not lady - like, and sounds stupid when you're out in public. I was out with my moms one day at Borders, and there was this crowd of teenagers there (black, of course). Most of them were females, and every other word was a curse word. I'm like hello? You don't see my mom, and all these other adults right here? They sounded so ignorant. I'm like man, is that how I sound when I curse too? So yea, I'm on a mission. I'm only cursing when totally necessary. :) .. Well, trying, anyways.

*this excludes "Nigga". I will continue to say that. Nigga, nigga, nigga.

These school weeks are going by extra fast. I'll be done with school before I know it. THANK GOD! Oh em gee. You do not understand how long I've been wanting this school year to be OVER. Lol. So much has happened this school year, too. Who'd of thought, you know? So many people in my life, coming and going, and then coming back again, lol. But hey, every years is like that, right? Despite the ups & downs, I have no regrets, and hold no grudges. I don't have time for it, really. I really... don't care anymore, and it feels good to sa- erm, type that. Things happen because, well - just because. I think I'm comfortable with it now. I just know what to expect next time, and what to and not to do. I'm a lover, and a fighter. :)

I've been thinking about this lately.. If I were to die tonight, would I make it to heaven? You think about it too, if you want. Do bad people go to Hell, or Good people that do bad things? I know I'm not a bad person, but I mean.. I sin, everyone does. What happens if I die before I get a chance to repent? From what I hear, remember; this is just from what I read and hear.. the world is ending in more or less, 5 years from now. If that's true, are you ready? Lol.. Let me stop freaking ya'll out. I'm gone for the night..

- Let me put YOU on game.