we're losing.

Aloha, ho's & tricks.

Soo.. I decided I wanted to blog today, even though I probably shouldn't. I have to get Jay back motivated into blogging again. He seems to not like blogging when I'm away. Poor kid. He misses me. Don't worry Jay, you don't have to show it.. EMBRACE THAT SHIT, HO!


But man, why is it stupid beautiful over here? Makes you realize how different other parts of the world really are. If you've never gone to any place like Hawaii, you need to make plans to go, whenever you get a chance of course. The weather is perfect, the people are nice (and gorgeous!), and it's super relaxing - especially the beach at night. Oh my God. I was out there for about 2 hours , just me and my iPod zoned out. I almost fell asleep. Living out here wouldn't be so bad. It really makes me realize how much I absolutely under no circumstances can stay in Detroit for school. I have to leave. What reason do I have to stay here? The only people still here is my mother and grandmother, and they probably aren't staying in Michigan for much longer either. So, yea, that pretty much settles it.


I've been thinking a lot since I've been here, too. I was thinking in particular about, or course, people in my life. Ehh, have you ever really wanted to say something to somebody, but felt like you shouldn't say anything to them after-all? Mm.. I kinda feel like that. It's like.. you're so angry with a person, that your anger turns into disappointment? I hate being disappointed in people, lol. It makes me feel stupid. And like, I want to say something, but I feel like I'll be wasting my time. If you haven't realized by now, then what's me saying anything to you going to do about it, you know? Ugh, I don't know. I always do it, and it's partially my fault. I trust too many people, I guess. Don't get me wrong, though. And then when it's me not the one that's breaking my ass trying to talk to the person, I'm in the wrong. Somehow, I always end up being wrong. -sigh. I guess it's whatever though. I'm not going to front like I don't care, but shit, what am I supposed to do? Somethings are better to just let happen - If things are meant to get better, they will.


So, this new guy. He calls me "Booka". Pretty gay, right? Lol. Not exactly anything big right now, but you can tell what his eventual intentions are. Every time I meet a new guy in my life, I get nervous. Not a scary nervous, but more like an anticipation/excited nervousness. It's weird. I won't say too much about it, because I don't want to 'jinx' myself, but hey, dudes a good catch. He's like 6'4 .. or some shit like that, he's a cutie pie, too. But enough of that.


-looks out the window

It's pretty cool up here on the 33rd floor. Not to mention the oceanside view/balcony. I can see the whole damn city of Waikiki. It's extra beautiful at night, too. All the lights and everything - yea. Hopefully tomorrow we can finally go horseback riding and on that submarine thingy. I think I might be conquering some of my little fears here too. I actually was considering Parasailing. You know, the big ass kite thing that they tie to the back of the speedboat - yea, that. And dude, submarine? You used to not be able to pay me to get on one of those things, but hopefully we can get a chance to knock that out.

So now, it's like 1 am over here, and about 7 back home. I'm going to go out on the balcony and chill for a few, and then hit the sack. Beach early morning? Mahalo, niggers.

Oh, and guess what? My Hawaiian name is "Kina", so that's what you guys have to call me until futher notice, kay?

-our friendship is slowly vanishing, tell me, are you okay with that?