living in la - la land.

Hey ere' body. Like the renovations? It's temporary. Just something a lil different, you know? The picture? I'm sure some of you probably seen this before. Grafitti that somebody did downtown. -shrugs. It's not really anything fancy, or anything like that. But I do like the colors, though.

So, guess what!? I got my zillions iiiinnn! Lol, they're actually kind of cool. I think I look young ass hell with them, but I still like them. I was getting mad looks today, lol. I'm like Damn, a nigga gotta put weave in her hair to get looked at? Smh. Sike na, but yea.. I like it. Thank you, Keila Boo.

I went to the DIA today. The renovations they did were really nice. I haven't been there in like, forever. We were drawing and shit from the sculptures, and what not. I did pretty good. Tell me why Charcoal like, my new favorite medium? -Ugh, Jay. He keeps talking about how I'm too young to know about certain things =[. IT'S NOT MY FAULT I WAS BORN IN THE 90s! Ho ass 80s babies. You guys slurp major penis, okay?

I have dishes to wash, -sad face

I packed my suitcase today, It's getting more and more real that I'm finally leaving. And tell me why Easter doesn't seem like Easter? Ehh.. We don't even go to church on Easter anymore. It's too crowded, and hot. I used to like seeing how nice people dressed up, though. Especially the little kids, with their adorable ass suits and dresses. My Easter dresses used to be BAD! Awe, I miss those days.

Ryan asked me If there was a lucky guy in my life yet. I didn't really know what to say. I guess you can say yes, but not really. I'm still not being committed to anyone. I told him I'm not getting into a relationship until I absolutely felt like that's what I wanted to do. I think about it sometimes, and I'm like.. "Yea, that would be cool.." and then I start thinking again.. and I'm like.. nevermind, lol. People don't realize how much you have to sacrifice for a relationship. It's no longer just you, its "Us". The decisions you make, ultimately affect both of you, you know? I'm not ready to share my consequences, and faults with anybody just yet. I'm too up and down with myself right now for that. My boyfriend would have been dumped my ass. Awe, my "boyfriend". See? Stuff like that makes me think about how nice that sounds, ehh, it lasts temporarily.

Man, I have a taste for some chewy Lemonheads :( ; I need to take care of that, asap.
-sigh

Despite the little bullshit, life is still good.
I've been smiling a lot lately, so it's all good.

-jayisawackfakebitchlol