hello darkness, hello sunshine.

"Where are you love? I've been waiting for you, but you're not here.."

Fuck the Gay Shit now, kay? Kay. So yea, I've been feeling really crappy the past couple of days. My wife left me, my cat died, and somebody stole my doritos. :[ Nah, just bullshitting. But really though.. somebody did take my Doritos today. Freaking Cunt. I plan on calling Jay in the next 57 minutes (it's 11:04, counting is fundamental). I doubt he's going to read this before its time, so he wont know anyways. That ho better answer the phone, too.

Yesterday was one of those days again. You know, when I get so stressed, it starts making me sick. Yeah, that was yesterday. Oh, and I haven't been eating either. Not good, right? I'm the last nigga to skip a meal, but I don't know. After lunch on Monday my stomach started hurting like a biotch, and after that it was all over. Lol at the Niggas from Jackass taking over TRL. Assholes. I curse a lot. I should work on that. It's not very cute :(.

Do you know my mom told me on the way back home from drivers training tonight that I ask to many questions? Nigga, I went off. I was so mad. Shouldn't you encourage your child to ask questions? Wtf? We like, we're arguing the entire ride home, when we got out the car, and up the stairs. Yea, she's a fucktard sometimes I swear. Sorry, your daughter is a very curious person. Curiousity leads to questions. Can't handle it? Send me off with my father, I'm sure he'll entertain my on-going questions.

Ugh, I need my freaking camera. I feel so naked. Twan, it's about time you hand my shit over. If the snowing stops, I will definitely be making my way over there tomorrow, so enjoy it while you can. It's snowing like crazy outside. Guess I'm not going to school tomorrow. I'll be stuck here with her -points at mothers room. She's so damn naggy. That shit drives me crazy. Over the smallest stuff too. Eeh. What are you gonna do?

Drivers Training is easy so far. Oh, and the boys in our class don't talk. Whoop-de-do-da. Quiet ass niggers. Oh yea, and they're not very smart when it comes to cars. I mean damn, we're on the first chapter. Why are you getting F's on the tests already? I declare, famales are better drivers than men, ha!

Fats doesn't know what he wants, smh. He's not being much fun lately, and leaving me to do all the work. Pretty gay is what it is. -rolls eyes. And wow, Ryan called me last night. Nigga, can we say WOW, like again? If my head wasn't hurting so bad, I would have talked to him last night, but my brain couldn't take it. He has to be one of my favoritest people in the entire world. He freaking understands me perfectly. I always tend to connect better with dudes with the same zodiac sign as me, uncanny! -Sighs. I'll call he back later on before I go to sleep, he ALWAYS has something to talk about. We come up with deep shit too, it's crazy. I don't think we have ever had a moment of silence on the phone before. We're cool. B) I kind miss him too. We used to talk like, everyday, but after I got my new phone, I lost his number and he was gone for a while :(. But he found me, and we have a lot to catch up on. -devious smile.. hehehe..

Lol, maan, let me stop. My trip is coming up pretty soon. The closer it gets, the more afraid I get of thinking about that plane ride. It feels like I'm anticipating my trip so much, it wont come true. Oh, you guys don't know? Well, when I tend to really really want to go somewhere, or do something.. It tends to not happen for some reason or another. But this usually only happens when I keep talking about it - yea, problem. I can't stop talking about it. I'm so ready to go and take pictures its retarded. So in the back of my mind, I see some shit like, my plane crashing.. or some shit like that. I usually am cool about planes, but this time.. eeh.. call it, an uneasiness?

Sometimes I think I can like, see the future and shit, lol. No, but like seriously though. -straight face. [Ryan's calling] Yaaaay! He sounds so freaking good over the phone, lol ... pssh.. he sounds good in person too.. looks good too.. mm.. ANYWAYS.. this nigga really into this College Hill ish. -Smh He says he's going to call me back, nigga into that show and stuff. Says if I fall asleep he's going to kick my in the throat.. :( I'm scared, so I'm not going to sleep, lol.

Hey, I think this might be my longest blog ever! YES! I'm turning into Jay! But real talk though. I love reading his blogs. He's a really cool guy. :) No homo or nothing. His girl is really lucky to have a guy like him. You still a ho, though. I also realized how much I hate reading blogs where nigga's don't know how to write. Like, you don't have to type properly or anything, because I don't... but damn, nigga can you use some type of punctuation mark or something!? Pet peave much?

I only have 2 more classes before my saturday classes are done. I'm going to probably take spring classes, too. I need them. These weeks went by hella quick, by the way. Track season may have took it's last look at China last year. Who knows. I never can decide permanately on what I want. Mood changes make life changes, lol. Bad, I know.. but what can I do about it? It's hard settling for one thing. I bored too easily. It's dumb, yes. Leave me alone.


Fingers Hurt, so I'm done for the night. Or, just for now.
Please remember to practice Safe Sex, The End.

stop.